Sometimes I think I'm really not that close to some people as I thought I am. Or whatever it should be phrased. I mean, I thought I was close to them, but in fact to them, I am not. Maybe I really think too much la. Sometimes, I just assume that I very close with that person loh.
I literally stoned during chem and fmaths thinknig abt it leh. Then I read some others' blogs then I really confirm that the fault lies with me. I seem anti-social. Or maybe just that I'm too quiet sometimes. I dunno what happened to me oso lah. I really got this thought that I chose the wrong path. And sitting here to suffer the consequences.
I dunno why I care so much about such stuff, especially relationships with people. I depend alot on others, I guess. Then just small stuff I get quite sensitive to it. Haiz. I hate the mentoring, I'll be that extra there la. Either I skip it or I just diam diam sit there. Dunno la. I rather a J2 teach me. At least it's a stranger then not that bad.
Dunno la.
I really dun feel like going sch sometimes. It's like I sit there and make myself sad. So dumb.
And my PW. Worse lah. Now I'm the extra there again. All in pairs le, then I be there secretary write what they say loh. Since they wont listen to me anyway. It happens all the time. Dunno them la. Only when they can get benefits from me then they'll be nice to me.
I really dont see any good side of me. Haiz. I suck la. I never liked julys. Really make me super sad one leh. Last year oso like that. So irritating.
I really nth to say le. Sometimes really wonder why my mum didnt abort me. Less stuff to think abt now. All I know is brood over useless stuff and waste my time.
I'm really useless la.