Haha. Went to celebrate Hazel's bday on sat. First met Hannah and Iris at heeren to get a present. Haiz. We girls can waste time. lol. Shopped like an hour plus still had nth in mind. Went ini toons for like 2 or 3 times, haha, end up buying stupid stuff. Haha. And thank god we didnt choose the algae present. As if it will grow.
We walked past the piercing shop. We decided to avoid it, at least 3 of us didnt say anything. We didnt pierce our ears still. Haha. Hmm. The flip flops looked nice, and expensive. Hee.
I've got a piggie on my fone. So damn cute. Hannah got one too. Iris got a 'Queen of whatever' badge. If wateva was replaced with hades it would be perfect. lol
Hmm. Finally we were late. 1:55 still at heeren. Had to meet the nut at 2. but still we took our own sweet time. All *tada* the birthday girl was out, we all wore black except her. And she had this leather strap that looks as if she's goona strangle herself if it was a little tighter. kidding.
Hmm, after much consideration, actually truthfully speaking we didnt think much, we decided on eating at cartel. and that was like 3pm. Nvm. After browsing thru the menu for many many times, decided on eating pork chops. Hehe. while hannah and iris chose steaks. Tada. Had free flow of drinks and bread. marvellous. Pork chops came, and it was 3 big pieces for god's sake. nvm, took own sweet time to eat. Haha. And my cheezy bread and how horrible we'd messed up the table. Haha. Then it was already 5. Really took a long time to eat. We watched Li Jia Wei's match. Well, lots of ppl came in as well, all ordered small stuffs just to watch the match. Lame. But whatever, we were quite guilty that we sat there for hours, took their comfortable sofa seats and ate pork chops with free flow bread only, we decided to get some snacks. Flipped that same old menu again. Haiz. Finally.....well..... ordered 10 scoops of ice cream with whipped cream and cookies of alternate colours lining at the sides. We are beyond hope man. Nvm, watched the match and unwillingly stuffed all those fatty foods into the body. And groaing "I feel sinful" at the same time. Haha. Tada. And we finished that, as usual. bleahz. but s'pore still lost for that match. Coz I was watching. That was the very main reason.
I cant watch any match. The party that I support will lose. Surely. ".....surely..where I know I must be..." [Nt funny. =X] Well, and that explains why s'pore is out. *sob sob*
Hey..Olympics is so damn nice. Have been catching up with all the gymnastics. My idols!!!! Russia team rox man. Though it makes me feel inferior coz I can't bend. I'm not flexible. Bleahz. Diving is another must to watch. lol. Olympics ~~ Whee! But anyway, singapore is still out from badminton and table tennis. Coz I watched the matches. What horrible poor luck I have. I ke4 them. Haha.
After the meal, hazel got to meet her sister, so me, hannah and iris went to peep at the sec 4's farewell at Marina Mandrin, or issit the other way round? Whatever. WhoO~ The food looks yummy!!! If not because of cartel, I would have stayed for the meal I tell you, no matter how much my graduating juniors gonna hate me! lol. So cute to see you juniors, younger than you by 2 yrs, to lead the band. Haha, not used to it I guess. Hmm..they can dance, not too bad, at least. And we three were making a fool out of ourselves at the back of the function room. Haha. All the juniors were staring. We look like backstage crew, don't we? [W.I.B Women in Black] lol. Hmm, i look damn stupid, opening the covers when it's so obvious there's no food. Haha. Had a hot steam face spa. haha. And was stupidly crapping how I should get the food from the juniors without them noticing. Such as taking all the tarts at the sides so that it dosen't look obvious. Stupid me. Haha.
Haiz. I miss all the AH times, got these 3 friends by my side, plus bernie and the band ppl. Lots of laughter. Still remembered when I was sec 1, I stepped into AH, there was a sense of disgust in me. Hate this school, coz it was my third choice. And Mdm Lau pissed me off on the first day coz she wanted me to change my school shoes to those with laces. So irritated. Remembered Iris was sitting beside me on orientation, bet she didnt know. Haha. I really hated AH when I was sec 1, and whenever I saw nanyang girls I was damn envious, coz I couldn't get in. All my gps class ppl either goes RGS, RI or DHS. so I was like the minority that hopelessly end up in AHS. And 1E didnt have any gps ppl !!!! Haiz. Band too!!! Unfair treatment. Band wasnt my first choice either. Chose this stupid CCA which was meant for boys, [AC]². I dumb or I stupid loh. Third choice was guides. Come to think of it, shld have joined guides instead. Coz my mum's a guide, and look at their activities, so fun one loh. But under that hot sun...got to think twice. Haha.
Band wasnt that bad either. Used to hate band la, like went in, got into trumpet, when you start bussing or buzzing or how you spell it, you lips start to vibrate so much even when you remove the trumpet from your lips, you can still feel that vibration at the lips. *oucH* Lied to Mrs Chua abt my allergies to metal [like erm....] then she transferred me to perc. Bernie was threatening me that time for changing sections. Hee. But well, at least, that was where I belonged to for the next 4 years.
Had ups and downs la. SYF practices were torturing, then carrying instruments here and there. Had quarrels with section ppl and all that. But thank god it went to a stop after some time. Finally grew up mah... Always hide behind the timpani and eat food when Mrs Chua was explaining. Hee. Stayed up late in the evenings and doing nth in the band room, ka jiao the juniors and all that, hmm, really very fun la. Then library... dunno. Upper sec years were really memorable.
Dunno what happened during sec 2 oso. Had very vague memories. Remeber keep helping that anqi gel her hair during enrichment period, which is the last period on friday, so that she can go for her st john with neat hair. Then the monkey always give me the look of why am I gelling somebody's hair during his lesson. Haha. Coz his lesson on chinese history is really cannot make it la. so boring. Even I didnt listen I still got an A for chinese culture appreciation. lol. Then we against the FSG. Hee. Charmaine was the nicest girl I knew from that gang. Haiz. Then piah like hell just to get into triple science. And this spirit faded ever since. Haha.
Sec 3 was where all things start to change. Class, ppl, character, experiences. Always go out shopping, eat, slack, do notice board till quite late and wait for uncle hassan to chase us off. Esp CNY can see lots of class doing last minute work, such as my class. Always lidat one. Haha. Had this bunch of jokers in my class, really enjoyed their company. Entertainment news was like me and hazel's forte. That was like how we clicked la. I remebered first time I talked to her coz of that I-weekly news. [I used to buy that mag every week. Now...bankrupt le. Haha] Then we ba gua until haiyoh... Then the science fair at science centre. Didnt slp at all just to help the guys with the displays. Didn't do a good job though. But aiyah, for that one reason, that's why I did ok? and sacrificing my sleep. =P On 22nd July 2002, we changed to a new classroom [coz of PRIME programme] which was so near to the canteen. Smuggled food to class like nobody's business and cliff was so pissed. Still can remeber bernie's response. Haha. Then was too near to the bookshop and it was our usual hangout in school. Haha. The uncompleted wall graffiti we attempted to design. Half done and the mahjong papers start falling off. Hmm...too many things happened, but that was the best year of all. I was crying alone in the classroom on the last day of school, find it a pity that all these have come to an end. Ms Tay saw me, then she thought I got dumped. -.-"
Sec 4, that container classroom. The SYF, all the fun, anime, piahing for Os, tuition. How I wish time can be like videotape man, rewind then play again. I like my English grp!!! Hee.
Actually AH life was much more than these. But I'm getting that dory illness in me. [Hmm, dory..made me think of how bright I was in the cinema. Haha. Watched with blah blah and bleh bleh la. dunno who hor? lol. dun slaughter me. ]
The school that I hated initially eventually became the place that holds the best memories in my life.
Haiz. Come to think of why I chose nj. It was rather stupid. Coz all my close friends all either go poly or england, stupid buta. I had to choose somewhere. I wanted tj, truthfully speaking, but there was some factors that made me drop the idea. Come to think of it, it's really damn lame. I mean, if I'm in tj now, I probably won't think this way. But whatever. vj, was my first choice during sec 3, but also didnt know why sec 4 didnt have the idea of going there alr. Forgot also. So I thought, since so many people won't be by my side, maybe should try sth new. So looked thru the list of jcs and suddenly think I should aim for nj. At least a goal to work for. [Since I will never be able to make it to rj and hcjc] Actually I never thought I could get in, thought just work hard and try loh. Also wanted to see how the west culture is like. Hmm, and that is what I get now loh. Risk so much.
First three months were really nice. Maybe because orientation bonded us together. At that point of time, I really nv regret. In fact, I think it was the first time in my life I made a super duper wise decision. Remember we pon lessons just to go mac and eat, lazing around during free periods [mayb because of free periods our relationship was quite good]and much much more. Talk crap during lessons and talk bad behind that kenneth koh. I really loved nj at that point of time.
Hoping that days will continue to be the same, I still chose nj for JAE. But didn't know our class got split, homework came piling and so much commitments to so many stuff. Well, first semester still acceptable. But after common tests, so many things happened, without me realizing it, and now, things seem so bad.
Maybe it's my perspective that had changed? Coz the other girls are still doing fine. I dunno how things can be changed for the better now. Coz I lack the courage to do what i'm supposed to do. It was like a sudden change. Coz of one blog entry, I suspect. Really you have to be responsible of everything you say. Haiz. Just hope miracles do happen. *pray hard* * crosses fingers* Actually why do I feel so sad coz I keep looking back, I keep thinking how close we were in the past, and why now, only me, cannot be as close as before. Or even, not close at all.
For example, the meeting just now. I know whether I should cry or smile. I really dunno. Just bear with it, I guess. I thought i could find equally close friends here, coz first 3 mths I really had la. But well...things just dun always continue that way.
All I wish is that she can dun ignore me le. But you need efforts from both sides la. Since I'm not doing anything, how can I expect so much? I'm just trying my best to get myself out of her sight, so as to minimize her hatred? It should feel better if you dont see your enemy so often.
Maybe...it all lies with that choice I've made. I never get to make wise choices.
Will this friendship be able to get restored again? Should I keep the faith?
I guess I'm just another person who looks damn dao but actually I'm super weak inside. It just acts as a cover-up.