Haiz. Dunno what's happening to me la. Just very easily irritated. Argh~
First it was the horrible injection on tuesday that gave me a horrible headache which later turned into fever. So pissed coz I didnt manage to do anything for the entire day. Either I was sleeping or I was in a daze. Even I went to study my alkenes again, nth manage to go pass or through the puny brain of mine. It was so fruitless. I should have read some ba gua magazines, at least I gained some knowledge on gossips. Argh~ And mum forgot to buy bday cake for my maid, so we end up eating sara lee cake, which wasnt very bad though. But can see the disappointment on my maid's face.
Then today. Went to tamp to get my blood test result. Fine. I'm an O+. So if you need transfusion can just find me. Haha, but the point is I think I'm the one who needs transfusion more. I lack of blood. lalala~ Then had dinner with dad just now, and he's pronouncing 'Anglican' as 'Elegant' again!!! So pissed loh, but I didn't utter a word. I shout at him I sure lose one, coz I more scared of his roaring. hee. Then put myself to work, finally. After so many days. Did waves tutorial and practically that's what I did. Coz I slept for the entire afternoon. Stupid lazy me. And when I woke up all I did was watch my jue shi hao ba. Haiz.
And I dunno la. I hate insensitive ppl. I dropped hints so many times he just won't get it. Argh~ Nvm, dont bother abt it le. Don't see a point either. He won't know what I want forever. Argh~
I just don't get myself either. I tried to study for these few days, I tried to squeeze the bulk of chem into my head, such as chem bonding and organic chem. But after that headache I practically forgot everything. It's like I memorised the conditions for reactions so hard the day before the next day it was like all gone. Like my whole hard disc kanna format lidat. Very irritated. Maths, I haven't touch a single bit, I just don't understand everything. So cheem loh. I really have no idea abt maths. Physics. I can only do with my notes, I can't memorise formulas and definitions. GP!! A sure fail subject to me. My english is getting from bad to worse. Really wondered how I could get A2. Promos. I dunno what to aim for at all.
I lack the motivation to study. I wanted to give up along the way. Dunno la. I lost all the drive in me le. What really happened to me? Thought coming nj could just make me score better, that was what I thought in sec 4, but the truth is always the opposite. I'm in a big mess now.
I miss the times I had in KAP, no matter who I'm with. I miss all the fun I had. And ironically, I miss meetings, somehow.
Even playing dayota today didnt destress me a little. Whatever.