K, good for me. I had my OP done. Mayb it's really a blessing, pw is finally off frm my life, I hope. A minimum shall be a band 2. Anything worse than that, I can just call myself s-u-a-y Well, I'm just not very fated with pw.
Yesterday, I've got my op. Thought I did a little better than dry run coz I didnt read my script that much. [I put in a teeny weeny bit of effort to memorise my script. Apparently stage fright spoilt everything. I read the que cards still.] But I still feel that the teacher cant read the stopwatch! No matter how many times I read my script, no matter how slow I'm going to read, I had it done within 4 minutes. So with the erms...ah... stuff, it shouldn't exceed 5 and a half minute!! Nvm, I know I offended the teacher before my presentation somehow. Who call her read my name until so nan ting. So I told her the correct pronounciation loh. If lidat she buay song then I got nth to say le. Even my grp members support me. Q & A wasnt that bad. At least I think I gave a sensible answer. bleahz.
After that, my entire group, except that guo feng, of course, went to eat! Hungry after the presentation. My stomach was literally empty Wahaha. That's like my goal in life, somehow. Vision : Eat and sleep. Habits: Eat, sleep, watch tv. Hmm. Yupz, stupid rain. Initially we thought of settling it at yoshi. After much consideration, we thought of going Far East where there are MORE varieties of food. But somehow, someway, on our way to Far East, the huge bright red Ajisen banner caught our attention! *tada* big fat yellow 50% off printed on it. lol. Despite the irritating drizzle we can see it lah, so you can see how attractive it is. lol. Without hesitating, we rushed down to the Scotts Ajisen and had our meal. lol. $5.50 for a bowl of jap ramen sounds quite reasonable. If $10 I rather cook those instant ramen. Haha, I'm cheapskate and aunty. lol. Somehow it was my first visit there. And lucky for me, I ordered one yummy one. Unlike the poor choon ting and zhen wang who ordered the volcano one without knowing that it's the spiciest in the entire menu. lol. [We didnt know what the chillis there mean] Esp that zhen wang, the waitress had to remove that large chunk of chilli and changed the soup twice for her before she can take it, though both of them suffered frm the after effects of feeling warm in the stomach and whining their way..haa. Hmm..after that, as usual, shopped. But without an aim and capital is really pathetic. But just walk arnd. Yah..went Far East, Cine, Taka, Heeren. Blahz. Stuck at Cine with that heavy rain loh, what poor luck. Ulu building lehz. Haiz. Ran in the rain with my bag running across the roads and hiding in phone booths. Hahaa. Went HMV and listened songs. Hmm..and Taka to eat. Heeeeeeee...octopus balls. Yumm.. I told you I love to eat. Haiz. [Horizontally challenged]
Haiz. Who go and tell the entire class that I exceed 5 and a half minute?! Suan le lah, embarrassing stuff always kanna spread one. And if you treat it as a joke, for all I care. I don't find it funny.
Too much things on my mind. Dunno how to say..
First, I'm afraid I get kick out frm the team. The trails will be on next year. Moreover, I'm spending like half my holidays overseas, YEP then HK trip. Each 2 weeks. So lack of training will just imply that I can't play as well as I did before, not like I'm very good at it now but yah..it'll worsen. So I've got to admit I'll stand a high chance of getting kicked out. Actually you can come out with the list which 7 will be in already. But if you consider the possibility that next year's intake will have experienced J1s, the risk of getting kicked out is much higher...so.. Maybe I'll just put in my best for what I can now. Hope YEP makes me a little stronger physically. Somehow I just doubt I'll get in, so I'm sth like cca-less. Well, sometimes I really think I'm a dumbell for not joining band and went to join a cca which you are interested in. You've got to pay a lot for you so called dreams
Next, I really worry alot for my YEP trip. I'm really unsure of everything, whether I can survive the ordeal, whether I will get bitten by mosquitoes and come back as a swollen plum or sth. Whether I'll fall sick there and spend my trip lying on bed. I really hope I come back alive. Somehow my mum's worries got into me, influential her. And it's like yesterday's meeting made me ponder alot, coz it's like we realize that we didnt prepare much, so actually, are we really ready to go? All we did was just goal setting.. Dunno..just hope things run smoothly.
Plus, my mum. Haiz. She kanna gum disease and had to undergo operation to remove the 2 shaky teeth and plant them back again. Cheem. dunno what's that called, but that's what the dentist told her. 5000 bucks for each tooth. With other random stuff she has to undergo, it costs abt $11,000 in total. Haiz. Big sum of money loh. All the while I thought she's quite healthy despite the gastric problems she had earlier on, but now it's so much better. I dunno how to put this feeling into words. It's much of the worrying ba. Haiz. Sometimes she has toothache and that painful look she gives me, makes my heart ache a little. Maybe because she's so close to me, I don't bear to see her suffer. Somehow I feel the agony of the relatives of those NKF patients. nvm..crap. Hope the operation can just solve the entire prob. Then I won't mind the high cost.
I hope I'll never be alone.
And why must there be a YEP meeting on my bday?! Biangz. 2 hr somemore la. In some ulu timeslot. Can't you all just put it in the morning? 3-5 is such a stupid timing. Put it earlier you can spend the rest of the day better mah. Urgh~
And as for S papers..somehow I was wishing my application dosen't get approved. Then in the first place I shouldn't have handed in the form! Peer pressure I guess. I was thinking of dropping fm, but it requires a parents' letter, forget it then. I'm not sure whether I can cope with everything next year. What if i take S paper and the normal subject I can't tackle well? What if both S paper and the normal subj I can't handle them well enough? Then it'll be those liang tou bu dao an case... haiz.