Maybe all good things must come to an end. Just hope history doesnt repeat itself, everything will be fine. I've cried, but it won't solve anything.
I know all these happened because of me and myself. My selfishness, needless to say. I always thought of my feelings, my future, my life. I never spared a thought for others, never. I forgot about the feeling of being hurt and the misery after that, even though I've experienced it before. I swear it wasn't revenge, really.
I guess it's back to that line again : I'm too immature to handle such things.
Sometimes I thought I can let go of such memories and things easily, apparently I didn't. They just reappear in the middle of the night, in my dreams and some random moments when I look out of the bus. Haiz.
Stupid friendster bulletin. my wedding day. I'll never get mine, be a spinster forever.
I really envy those who can be together for years and decades. Haiz.
I hate myself for being the baddie. I initiated all these, and ended up with this mess. I hate my indecisiveness. I hate my stupidity.
This wound takes time to heal. bleahz.
I really hate myself. I made him end up in this plight. Made myself end up in this plight too. Maybe it was the best decision for me, but definitely not him.
Sorry for everything. I know I wasn't good enough. I've hurt you endless times and you've never complained a single bit. Yet I was the one who keeps whining abt stuff. I'll never forget the times we've spent together.
All the best for your endeavours!
Why must all these happen just before christmas????!!!! Nvm, it's my fault. Once again, a christmas all by myself. =)
Nobody's going to accompany me loiter around in shopping malls and streets.. nvm.
I will only treasure things once I've lost them. Haiz.
I hope you understand everything. Sorry for being so harsh to you just now.