haha. thankz!!! backstabber case is closed. lol. i just pretended nth happened. i feel so stupid. nvm.
was reading entries exactly one year ago. all the changes. used to blog abt happy stuffs and all that, and sometimes the descriptions are quite funny. lol. now, haiz. only come here to complain, whine. i hate that part of me.
just wondered why these changes. why? i entered nj, with a wonderful 1st 3 mths and more subsequent mths, and when i came back from jun hols. everything changed. till now, i still dont know what changed. how it changed. just know that things were different already. even the way i think, the way i behave.
all i know is everything changed. i know i became pretty sensitive. haiz. so horrible. and i think too much before i speak. yah, the straightforward side is gone. completely. and i keep lots of things to myself? why?
was it because i look back too much? hating the present situation all that. it's like nth i can do!
god. i'm whining again.
anyway, cto and her friends are so irritating. told us to lower down our volume in the canteen. it's their stupidity to do homeowork there....oOps. i forgot pigs need food, at all times.
hmm. hope this stupid mindset of mine can change gradually. yah, thursday, try not to think tooooooo much. yah. be natural. haiz. i thought YEP has changed abit of me.
i really want to know what's so bad abt me such that ppl come and backstab me. question mark. nvm.
i like my class. but somehow it hurts me sometimes too.... [i'm too sensitive. bleahz]
and sometimes i feel that i'm being my true self when i'm online. how sad.
yah..if you know the solutions too all these...tell me!!! if brainwashing is the only way out......i'll giv a try..
man. i feel like a weakling. damn damn damn. OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shall blog abt out stuffs tml. sleepy...hehe.