today's a mad day. i went mad. totally mad. whining over the point that nobody sms me n i'm bored and pissed off with someone coz he said sth that was referring to me. sth bad. n i dun like ppl talknig bhind my back. if u tell me straight in the first i'm fine. but behind me. i really hate these ppl. actually it's the same reason why i hate that girl. but nvm. haha. i really went mad. totally. not in the right state of mind. haha. stupid huimin. learn how to use my hp's phonebook! haa.
and benson is not coming to coach us anymore. last friday was his last training. he lied!!! he said this week is the last week. i was kind of expecting his training for the entire day, coz i really went mad. haa. and he said he had sth on. haiz. i was quite down. but hey. i didnt cry. i really didnt. just that i was laughing and laughing till tears dropped. i didnt cry. hahahaahah. i lost all the motivation. haiz. my strokes were bad today. but it wasnt because of him!!!. haiyoh. then wt told me later that zainal is coaching us on fri. wth. haiz. sob sob.
was down. haiz. so iwent running. first time i suggested running. haha. and i ran, ran ran. last round, i tripped over my own shoe/leg and fell on the tracks. ouch. so paiseh la. hope soccer ppl were concentrating on their training so they didnt see. they were the only ppl around the area. so paiseh. the abrasion is painful though. too long nv fall down. haa.
chem s and spa tml. i hate chem.
haiz. i hate myself for trying to avoid some stuffs and some people. i man, it's not the right way to solve ur probs but i'm doing that. there are some ppl that i dunno whether to greet them anot. more of myself who will think too much abt it. and i hate myself coz i cant control my temper nowadays. when i'm pissed i just show it out to the person i'm pissed off. all the attitude and bushuangness. god. haiz. bad bad bad. i dunno how to treat those ppl. haizzzzzz.
but somehow i like myself coz i'm looking at the positive side of life. enjoying everything i do except tests and hw. i'm getting more and more stupid and crack stupid jokes that ppl wanna kill me. do stupid stuffs in the court that looks so childish. haha. and i'm in my mad self. not too bad. haha. back to normal. no longer the "depression" stage.
haha. tonight got tang yuan!!!! yipee! last day of CNY. no moe ang pows frm tml onwards. haiz. i love red bean tang yuan. esp when the filling flows into ur sound. yum yum. ^5 sock! haha. yummy. dont be too envious!
haa.
ur's faithfully,
the clumsy girl who fell on the tracks. the clumsy girl who still fell even at the age of 17+. weak legs. haaaaaaa.
*muacks*