haha. yesterday me and waiteng went for the YEP [Khon Kean] presentation. haa. what we did before that were kind of stupid. supposed to mug and we took turns sleeping in the lib. was quite tired la. not enough slp for the piggy me. i need 10 hrs of slp on the average. haaa.
mrs marianne tan raised sth that struck me. think she spoke some sense...nope...i mean, alot of sense. she was asking like SIF chipped in so much money to send youths to overseas for YEP, why the spirit of giving and helping is still not there, why youths nowadays are still not that willing to serve? still our selfish selves. and why we can spend a good time helping the ocmmunities that are less fortunate in other countries, why dont we help those who are not so fortunate in our own country first? it's quite true, why are we so enthusiastic during YEP, at least me, but when I return, the spirit is just not there. just get stuck with life. face reality. homeworks assignments. that isnt the only thing in life. not only studies. why didnt we pass on this spirit to our friends? many of the ppl there said it's because of the hectic life he are having now, we are all striving for the best in our studies, our ccas, all those components that will bring us to success in the future. and we are stressed up over all these and forgot that there are ppl out there that needs our help? they just need our care and concern, they need not need good academic results and all that, but why arent we lending them a helping hand?
and graciousness. we appreciated the thai's graciousness when we were there. but why cant we just learn from them? issit because this is the way that our society, our community is shaped?
why are we all trying so hard, to excel in our studies, to beat others in tests and examinations, to compete over rankings and all that? maybe we have been fighting too hard, and we didnt realize, we are actually among the top ppl in the society? among our primary school friends, how many actually make it to jc? she said jc students are among the top 25%. so 25%, then we entered the top 5 jcs. which is even better. why are we still fighting just to reach the pinnicle. why arent we satisfied about our present situation? we may think that we are stuck in this shit coz we cant go into desired courses in universities, we didnt get an A for whatever test and we start whining and all that. acutally we shld be thankful that we have a good hardware. we are born with more brains from the start, that brought us to this stage. some people dont even have the chance to choose, choose which jc they wanna get into, what subj they want to take, yet we are still mourning over all these. cant we just appreciate what we have?
well, i was kind of scolding myself when i thought over this? last year, when all the unhappy things happened, i just blamed myself, for choosing nj and make my life so miserable and all that. but come to think of it, did i ever put in any effort to make myself feel better? i dun think so. actually there's no point. just learn to like the place, like the ppl. so now i'm just feeling better. just be ur usual self, no point thinknig too much. if you're upset over some stuffs, just mourn over it for a few hrs, a day and get on with life. things are not going to change because u are feeling sad today. the earth will still spin around that hot sun and well, time will just past. before you know it, you regret again and this misery becomes a cycle kind of thing. no point. stay happy!!!!
ps. hey.. i'm really ok. trust me! though my entires sound as if i'm in serious depression. haa. coz i'm just upset that moment but after that i'm fine. i just didnt type it out. lol.
as for the stuffs that have been stuck in my head, just let nature take it's course. i'm not going to bother coz i dun think i'm ready for all these. crushes can be quite nice sometimes. =) they make my day. lol.
yah. life's full of ups and downs. and many things are predestinated. god wants you to experience everything in life. no point trying so hard to change reality. haa.
nitez nitez. how many late evening trainings are there to come? i'm yawning everytime and i'm mentally exhausted. haaa. i feel so bad.