woo hoo. the common tests are over. come to think of it, it may be a torture but it seems so short as compared to secondary school days...2 weeks.
haha. fmaths. well. it doesnt appeal hard to me since i didnt treat it as an exam. i just tried what i can, just treated it as normal questions in the revision guide. cant do then skip loh. wanted to flip to the answers but realise they dont attach them to the question paper. lol. i'm stupid. haa. maybe it was the impact from yesterday. i'm numbed. i try to make myself work so hard last night so that i can forget abt what happened but well, it doesnt work coz both are of the same subj! but stupidly i know how to do the ques at home, but not in the examination hall. bleahz. i dont mind going for lum's remedial coz i think i need serious constant practice for my maths.
ahh. nvm. thought i could take a break from these but there's training tml. going there to be a clown again. i wanted to shop but well, mummy is unwilling to sponsor me and my poor savings were spent on today's lunch.
ooh. we had lunch at fish and co today!!! me, huimin, zhihui, minghui, zhenwang, chuhan. have been a while since my last meal there. my bday celebration. heeeee. we went to the one next to park mall, the cool glass hse!!! but actually it wasnt very big. haa. I can just conclude that we are fickle-minded! we chose what we wanted from the main menu, and then this nice waitress gave us this set lunch menu, so we chose set lunch, took so long to choose our salads and *tada* she told us that corriander has a strong chinese parsley smell so we all cancelled our orders. then we chose this butterfish and sharkie's whatever. haa. but the waitress was very patient with us ba. she cancelled and cancelled but she wasnt pissed off. heeeee. and she has nice makeup! love her eyeshadows.... and blue hair. [reminds me of bernie. haha. did you still have that blue dye?]
i'm still very full. the fish is very very nice. though the sauces are sour but it's so tasty. yummy yummy. i just realized how weird i am coz i like garlic. haha. they were all freaked out by the smell of garlic yet i still put a little on my fish. heee. and first time in my life i eat that pan of thing so slowly. think i took 45 minutes or so. i cut the thing slowly and dipped into the yummy sauce and tartar for my fries. lalala~ me, huimin and zhihui finished 2.5 "bowls' of tartar. lol. afterthat we bitched about things again. haa. as usual. from class to jolin to jay to YEP. after they've said it then i realized how suay we are. to have such people sharing the same green classroom with us. and it's then i come to know that i dont interact much with my class guys. when i was in 4A, at least i can have a good talk with guys but now, it's like i mix with the girls more. so, it's kind of weird?! haa.
yupz. then went to shop alone to get this "cushion" for my hp coz it flew off the desk a few days ago while vibrating. haiz. hp had a horrible concussion. it really feels terrible walking alone coz it looks so ulu. in uniform somemore. was really down while walking. bleahz. dunno what i have been thinknig. [hazel & iris!!!! want to go shopping one day? heee. feel like buying clothes. heee. but probably hazel will be busy with her deary dear again. haix]
i'm back to animes. got to make myself forget the damned past and move on.
i just wonder whether i really know how to love/like a person. maybe it's after the 'er fen zhi yi yuan fen' when i saw what ruien had been doing and realized that that was what i have labelled as 'my ideal relationship' all these while, ever since i know what is bgr. maybe it doesnt happen in real life, it's not about romance all day long and nth. for a guy to do all the sweet things to you. learn to forgive and forget. learning to be tolerant and understanding. this is what i cant do. i've demanded so much from him, and angry over small little stuffs like not always there when i need someone to talk to or just accompany me. it's like i'm still stuck with my 'ideal relationship' mindset. afterall, i'm still that small kid. i havent grown much. and sometimes i just wonder is our relationship really that good afterall though we talk on the phone almost every nite. sometimes i just think that we are very careful with our words, so that we dont hurt each other, so that there wont be fights and all that. that's not our true selves! bleahz. actually, can i really handle such things?
i just want to take a break from everything. i feel like travelling. i feel like having intense shopping spree and forget abt trainings and school. but well, i must understand that i havent prepare for my A levels and i'm lagging behind and i'm going old coz memory's failing me so i cant really take a break. the march hols was intended to be a break, yet it was so tiring due to the preparation of common tests. haiz.
In comparison, i've been much more hardworking in sec4 than now. i'm so slack and all those 'cant be bothered' attitude..... i know i should do sth abt it yet i didnt. *shrugs*
i'm still very full...*burp*