Let's talk abt napfa. this is so shit. haa. i cant jump! for the 2nd consecutive year! failed! ahhh. this is so demoralising. last year just scraped through with the help from mr menon. haa. this year. total flop. tuesday it was 157cm. yesterday it was 145cm. today was slightly better 158cm. god, i suck at this man.
oh, i knew i cant make it yesterday. so ms chue put her pen at the 145 mark and said that i must jump over the pen. then i was thinking 'dont belittle me la. i can jump over 145 one loh' shit. and i merely make it through. then jump and jump. it got worse. so i gave up. how i wish i was a kangeroo.
must be the chicken cutlet that i ate before the test. haaa. fatty fatty.
today's 2.4 was glad with my timing coz i improved from the february's time. 14:31. i know it's kinda slow but it's an improvement though i never attend training for these few months!! and it's only 1s short before i get an A. argh~ nvm la. it must be the scorching sun that motivated me. otherwise, i wont be running at this pace man. it was so hot and i was so hungry. lucky i still have oreos in my bag. wahaha.
i stink after the run. so horrible. haa. it was quite amusing calling jerry 'champion'. even mr lum joined in. haa. i think mr lum is nice, just a little feminine. =X coz he gave us oreos and some had dove chocolates. i'll fight for that. haa. physics was so FAKE. coz mr lim had assessment so he, like other teachers, tried to make lessons interesting. and bleahz, my group kanna tutorial questions, which we all dunno. think mr lim was pissed. haaa.
after school, me and cat went to kallang to watch the squashers play. i bought corn soup and the curry pie from mos. my fav combi!!! haa. made cat wait for me. so paiseh. haa. while taking 16 to kallang, there was this rj girl with us too. and we were thinknig maybe we shld sit behind her so that we wont alight at the wrong stop? haa. apparently she wasnt there to suppost squash. =X lcuky we didnt follow her. haa.
well, the girls played well. though we lost to rj but i dun think they feel bad or whatsoever. benson was there. that streak of golden hair spoils everything. completely. haa. and i did such an embarassing act. haix. i shouted his name so loud la. didnt even know he was there. lucky he said nth and still calls me 'jeanette' with a smile. heeeeeeeeeeeee.
the guys won. expected.
well, after that they were all mingling and everything. i managed to make yunru laugh so hard. haa coz of all my crappy answers and she as the one doing manicure for donna. haa. and the stupid answer of 'do you want your dream to come true?' she gives me a very good feeling. she cheers me up, and that enthu look she gave me when she saw me in the canteen today. really brightened up my day. at least i know... i wont be alone. at that time.
i'm glad they are very united la. or they seem to be. cheering for each other. and so nice fooling around. really happy for them. but just kind of disappointed coz i cant be one of them and sometimes i dun understand what they were talking about. maybe i missed too many trainings. and i missed so many things. so i decided to leave.
went to shop alone. kind of stupid. bought a tee and apparently it's a size smaller. look like a dumpling now. haa.
i know i shld put in the effort to make my relationships with others closer. Instead of creating these oppurtunities, i'm escaping from them. i really dunno what i'm doing.
and. i know. i'm the worst CT rep available. coz i dun even speak. not even when i need money for class fund. i really wonder what my mouth is for. some have even forgotten i'm the ct rep. i'm such a failure. in short, i'm useless.
and i think i'm such a horrible person. i promised to go out with him today and i changed my plan last minute and made him sacrificed his time to finish his tutorial so that he can go out with me. i'm so bad la. now ms ng probably thinks that he has the intention to skip her lesson from the start. i'm really not worth sacrificing for.