some people feel pressurised coz of all the attention they get.
yet, they didnt know they're hurting someone out there.
someone who's been forgotten by everyone else..
unless he/she is needed.
time when he/she is needed: rarely..
have been thinking of what to write for testimonial. suddenly recalling became such a stupid thing. like i've did nth spectacular or significant in these 2 years. even as a ct rep la. i cant even collect money. (uesless to the core) i dunno what examples to cite, what to write about myself. i have not much traits to state, and there's like no concrete examples to state. i think if they allow me to write my bad points i could have given them a booklet or sth. yah, testimonials require good traits, which i'm still cracking my brain to fake out some. i've got like no leadership skills, and i am lazy, and i can speak, i have a bad lousy temper. bet no unis want me.
shall shut up. and stop getting distracted by everything out there. i cant even get to study. sat at my desk at 11am and didnt do a single thing even till 7pm. what a waste of time..
i've never left my house for like 5 days. feels like a bird trapped in the cage. i never took the lift to ntuc at all. it feels like a prisoner, and mom says i'm a good girl coz i never went out at all. whatever.
i'm down. i dunno the reason why. probably because of the conversation. i feel depreesed. i'm back to that envy mood. yah, envious of everyone out there and think my life is super mundane.
i feel like hiding myself under my blanket. i'm such a loser. bleahx.