was reading iris' blog.
out of a sudden, i miss playing on the stage.
i miss big red ugly striking blazers.
i miss court shoes. (now my court shoes are a totally different kind of shoes)
i miss all those freaky moments that i rushed through the piece like no one's business.
i miss 'rolling' on the xylo when i'm pissed.
i miss kb-ing zhiwei somehow. haa.
i miss all the juniors and yinting who talk crap with me all the while.
i miss all those moments that we write 'good luck' cards and any random greeting cards to one another.
coz i dont do that now. (i'm losing the sincerity part. what a screwed-up person i'm now)
i miss 85 market and that full of lard ba chor mee.
i miss those stupid bubble tea cards. haa.
bleahz.
i'm good at recalling and regretting. like choosing nj. when my 2 years' stay is ending soon. like keep whining coz i didnt choose tj when i said a totally different thing more than a year ago. like 'i'll never ever go tj!'
and nj changed my whole personality to the not so good side.
that's what i feel.
comparing to what i was like when i first entered this place.
my character, my attitude.
talked till 4am last night. was doing self reflection.
i think the content in this entry appeared many times before.
i just cant shake this off my mind.
if only i was more sensible a year ago. like not going for the impossible.
i'm losing all the passion. all my enthusiasm.
i ought to find them.
and stop acting like a kid. like a 18 mth old kid.
all those childish thoughts.
if only someone could guide me. and if i follow.
shall put this all to a stop and concentrate on mugging
trapping myself in a house for 8 days is not a good thing.
and i should read more. english is like shit. it's in simple sentences with simple vocab.
even the word simple appeared twice in a sentence.
haha.
anyone interested to go out and study or shop or whatever? i'm bored to the core.