sobx. recollections are saddening.
was reading my autograph book. though not many people wrote, i was touched by those messages inside. what my juniors wrote, my stupid island stories and my indian accent back in ahband. how they wished me all the best for Os.
and all of them said i was a ultimate crapper. but now, i only know how to complain. i forgot what crap i said in the past, but i missed my past self. i can practically go home with anyone i knew, not specifically who. i can talk with anyone about anything. i dunno what happened these 2 years. i was trying to find out. i'm like keeping to myself, and i'm being so ke qi to everyone and people dare not talk too much to me either.
i miss having someone who'll guide me along. people like hazel, bernie, jiawei, yinting, iris, hannah. they always gave me advices when i need it and tell me what to do when i'm lost. people who came to comfort me when i'm trying to hide myself in the classroom when everybody left. now, i'm like all alone. i have to make decisions by myself. and i've made the wrong one ultimately. maybe it's when i have to start to be independent, and i hate the change.
no offence, but i think i have too many hi-bye friends in nj. i want someone to confide in!!! boo hoo.
i'm so envious of christine! her class actually gave her a birthday surprise. soo coool. class!!! like when will my class do it? bleahx. (and no to the idea of singing the bday song in the canteen. haa) but anyway, no one will celebrate my bday this year. coz it lands in the period of A level exams. so suay.
but still, we have to move on. at least i had a good memory. sometimes what you think is best for you may not turn out to be the best.