"... she's particularly close to one guy from her cca..who happens to be my friend.. though he helped me before in getting to know her better...he happens to like her as well 0_o.. however i only learnt about that quite some time after we got together.. i kept quiet la...there are times when they meet up while me and her were together.. i knew it la.. i juz kept quiet.. and pretend i didnt see anything.. i'm a normal person la... like you and the rest... guys do get jealous when girls treat other guys nice or be close with another person...that's how i felt...but i didnt voice out my unhappiness much...cuz i didnt want to jeopardize my friendship with him...but now.. when i think back.. maybe i should've done something back then... i should've voiced out my unhappiness... or do more to get attention back from her.. instead of letting things happen there.. and i just watch..now after we broke up.. i often see her and him together.. sometimes even more close than me and her were before.. really hurts me alot..really...i've never been treated this way by any of my friends.. i felt "stabbed in the back"...and maybe all over my body.. my heart was crying... two person is enough for a perfect relationship... we dont need another person... i'll never probe into any of my friends relationship... though i hear many times.. that he's just a very close friend... it made me feel even worse.. that now currently... she doesnt regard me as a good friend at all..."
think about it. reflect. though i hate to admit, but i feel exactly the same way. nothing could change this fact. so what if we patch up, the impression has changed. though in some way i didnt pretend to not see anything, but voicing it out wasnt of much help too.
well, maybe when i'm old and start to think abt my past, i may think my life is downright interesting coz i'm like experiencing things you usually see on tv serials. HA.HA.HA.