ok. seriously i'm not angry because you caused me to end up in this state. i'm not angry coz you somehow "betrayed" me. i'm just angry coz you hurt someone else, someone who trust you so much and feels like getting "backstabbed" in the end. seriously, spare a thought for ohers. i may not be that important, and i dont mind if you dont give a damn to me. but yah, you've hurt someone who believed in you, who somehow put his future in your hands. and you ruined it. in case you didnt read, he's in a state of despair.
put all these behind. i'm really numbed towards it, but i feel bad for that guy. like. yah. i dunno what to say. while i read all his entries, i felt the regret he has, how he wish he was given a chance again to do what he should. but well, life's like that. there're no fairy godmothers who grant your wish whenever you want. hope he works hard for it, and hope it's a happy ending. :)
i had a bad morning. coz i act heroine and ate that delifrance bread which was in my fridge for 2 days. and i think the mayo has turned bad or sth, but i thought it was nicer than the ntuc enriched white bread, so i just ate the entire thing. yah, thankz, i had a superly bad stomachache on the way to school. it's worse than cramps, i swear. it's like a stinging feeling. and it goes on and off. i really wanted to die. argh! and i had this stupid plan in mind. like i just try to tolerate the pain till maths lecture, then i can pon the lecture and go toilet. haa. and i was hoping the toilet trip doesnt help coz it means i can go home! lalala~ apparently the pain was so horrible i couldn't stand it during chem already. so i just cheong to toilet and yah, it's ok after that. quite sad coz my plan didnt work but it's better than the pain. (anyway, i still skipped physics. =P)
oh, then early in the morning i handed him my discman, and guess what i've got in return? a damn irritated look that writes "fuck la, why come and disturb me in the morning. i'm having a good time and u keep calling me to get this shit from you. thankz lah!" yah, it doesn't pay to be a nice person. and i bet i looked damn pale coz of that stomachache and he nv giv a shit. yah, and he told me he cares. wah, like real.
assembly. council came up withthe idea of walking radio for tchers day and we were talking abt what song to dedicate to mr lim. was coming up with sparstic songs like "twinkle twinkle", "liang zhi lao hu" and we concluded that we shld dedicate to him "cha shao bao". but council sux. they have a few songs to choose from only. boo hoo.
manz, school's been so tiring. dozed off during maths lec due to lack of slp last night. i think i'm gonna die early coz studies hav shown that ppl die early id they hav less than 4 hrs of sleep each day. that's what i'm experiencing during weekdays! chem 's' i nearly switched off again. but seriously chem 's' keeps asking the same stuffs and the answers are so similar it's like a waste of time listening to her complete her explanation. *yawnz*
so! i went to nap for a little while and my dad was watching that rthk video again and woke me up! coz the kids' voices were shrieking and partly coz my dad's semi-deaf so he on-ed VERY loudly. kids are cute, esp if they've learnt how to speak. i like my nephew and niece though they are younger than me by 6 yrs only. haa. love talknig to them and intro them to sparstic websites and online games. haaa. but little kids dont like me. how sad. my youngest nephew doesnt even care abt my exsistence! *frowns* i bought him a puppet and a big toy car and he nv even smile to me. broke my heart. haaa. but well, i shall forgive him coz he's less than a year old. haaa.
dunno. i was thinking of running rounds. like 10-15 or even more. firstly i wanna slim down and coz i just felt like running. coz i'll be super jaded when i reach home and i wouldnt think about so many things anymore. haa. and forget all these unhappy stuffs.
hmm. i quite like her. think she's pretty. yupx, but no one agrees with me. haix. must be sth wrong with my taste again!
i'm gonna desert myself. forcing our gap to get bigger and bigger and yah eventually we'll part. i know i'm cruel but that's the best way i can do. sorry.