fuck.
sorry i had to use this word.
i really hate myself.
for not preparing well for prelims
left so much doubts in my head.
went for physics by memorising some facts and equations
and only touched physics last night
thinknig i'll pass
what a joke
yah, god is fair.
got a bloody hard paper
or maybe it was abt the same standard but i just cant do
cant do HALF OF THE SHITTY PAPER
literally half.
and those simple questions
i just forgot one irritating letter and that's it
whole equation invalid.
what the hell
i dun want to screw up my prelims
out of all exams
prelims
EEEE is really fine
i dont want to get a fail
it's ugly
esp it's the last sch exam
fuck
where's the motivation to study
got to admit promos was my best performance.
coz i was afraid i cant get promoted
i dont want to be stuck in nj for 3 years
i could have gone to millenia or sth if that's the case
now, i get promoted, this is what i get
complacence
got bloody promoted so i'm not afraid to fail my As.
screwed up attitude
when i saw the j1s mugging today
i was really ashamed of myself
i sacrificed my lectures last yr to study
yes, the efforts paid off
but what happened now
urgh
urgh
urgh
i really hate myself
all i want is to cry
cry out loud.
i cant stand it anymore
first time i could actually leave 4 questions blank
even if it isnt it's gonna be wrong because of one letter, one graph, and no fucked up error carried forward marks
i'm not fit to take s papers
i admit i got them by luck
pure luck
i really hoped i got knocked by the car just now and put an end to all these.
and sorry to those i ignored just now. i'm really sorry.
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i hate my life.
i hate all these interpersonal relationships
but i just dun like guessing how the other party's thinking
esp those that i've offended
hate it.