i'm just disappointed with myself. i've put an end to our friendship. and that's it. on the last day of school. hah.
today is a suay day. to get scolded by the librarian for bringing the red spot books home early in the morning, when it's not totally my fault that they go home so early. i dun mind taking the blame. but must u tell ur friend so bloody loudly so that ur friend can join u in scolding me too? hell. and mind u, both of ur voices are not soft. if u want me to feel embarassed about it, then sorry, u did not reach ur aim. coz i despise u. u dun have the qualifications of being a teacher and u use ur authority to scold the students. enough of it. i got accused by u the other time for making noise in the lib when i was so damn quiet. fuck u u old hag. 50 year old virgin and counting. hell.
yes, last day of lessons in nj. thought alot. how i hated my seat when i first got 'thrown' there. it's like isolated from the others. when others left today, i sat there all alone, thought of all the lessons, my 1.75 years spent there. from that time when i thought i was left out till today. all the friends i've met, and the friends i've lost. what a loser i am to lose friends in these 2 years. though i wouldnt say i have much joy and laughter in the classroom, but it's the place where i met all my good friends and yes, that's where i found my joy and laughter. though u may say i'm bo liao, but i took pics of the classroom, with mr lum's workings on the board still. i dunno. i hate myself for being sentimental, like wasting my time thinknig of the past, as if i can do sth about it. time flies. i wished i was retained or sth. i hate it coz i feel so insecure abt my future, i wanna hold on to what i have now, and hold on to it forever.
well, i promised myself not to write too personal stuffs up here. so i shall stop. jiayou to those taking As!!!!