i recall, we used to sit down at some corner or even the classroom, sharing our deepest secrets.
sometimes we end up crying, sometimes we end up encouraging each other, giving advices.
i used to tell stupid jokes and come up with my no-logic theories. and you all named me, the talented crapper.
now, i realized i havent been doing these for a long time. or rather, after my 1st 3 months of jc. or maybe i did, but not so often. yes, i'm living in the past. most of the times i look troubled, but probably you wont believe me, but i dunno what am i troubled about. ppl tell me to tell them my secrets, i dun even know what my secrets are.
i guess i've been escaping from problems, avoiding them. trying to live in my virtual world. the smile i wear, i dunno whether it's genuine. so many times, (even yest) i was so afraid that my words hurt. where's that straightforward side of me? have been keeping too much probs to myself. been some time since i had a heart-to-heart talk with someone. ever since someone betrayed me. or rather he didnt. it's me who's naive to trust someone totally yet not knowing he's out to cheat ur feelings.
i wonder, how long would it take for me to open up again.
but of course, there are many times i'm sure, you all cheer me up, made my day. i love you guys!
i was so afraid we've got nth to talk about last night. but things arent as bad as i thought it would be. heeeee. i love neoprints though it always giv us heart attacks. haha. friday!!! neoprints again!