mtv of 'daisy' theme song. ahhh, it was so saddening! the song, the scenes.
well, today i had the same feeling i had when i was in j1. rejection. confusion. not knowing who shld i turn to, who shld i trust. i hate my stupidity. my stubborn character. friends have suggested that i shouldnt tell my boss abt it and yet i did. (well, jason was right. cant link me up with the word 'obedience') tada. it backfired. when i came back from lunch today, i saw my boss together with them, talking about i-dunno-what. but the last line was "....so you are saying that tienkwan asked for it la" i knew it was nth decent. i acted innocent and asked abt it. they crap this lame shit of the nescafe bottle which, from their eyes, you knew they were lying.
i'm really tired. tired of guessing who's the good man and who's the bad guy. i'm tired of finding out who's the person whom i can really trust. i once thought maybe my boss is nice enough to understand my situation yet i get stabbed right from the back. mummy was right. this world, it's far too complicated for you to understand. you will never get to know what tricks people are playing. how people are using you. i'm really jaded of all these. i dont understand why do i keep experiencing all these.
you cant blame me for being so protective of myself. i just dont wanna get hurt anymore. behind the dao face of mine, there hid many scars. the terrible experiences i've been through, you'll never understand.
all i wish for is to vanish from this earth soon. and never return again. i'm tired of life.