i typed a super long entry yesterday afternoon. all it's half gone now.
well, call me sensitive. but i somehow get some idea by looking at small little things.
my name wasnt in the list, but the others were. everyone. so see how fake people can be. they actually pretend to be so nice to you when deep down in their hearts, they've probably hated you to the core.
the group of people whom i was once so familiar with, became so distant suddenly. we no longer do things together, all seperated into smaller grps/pairs and well, the feeling's just not right.
i really hate changes. really.
i really get irritated at times when people copy and paste my entire convo to another person. sometimes mocking at what i type, when it's supposed to be serious matter to me. and sometimes, i find it questioning my credibility.
there isnt any moment i can really sit down and relax. when i reach home, coughing like mad like a tb patient, no one ever told me to take care or just give me a pat on the shoulder. i get bombarded with questions and statements like "told you go and see doctor" (when i did) or "you deserve it". when i took my medicine, he said "no use one la". it just seems like whatever i do is wrong. then i get bombarded with more questions. i just wanna be left alone, or engage in light hearted convos, but i cant. whoever i talk to just kept bombarding me with endless questions and hurting statements. assumptions like i keep talking to ****. so what if i tried to tell someone stuff, or even how i feel. no one's interested. i rather talk to myself.
i just wanna roam around alone. afterall it doesnt make a difference with someone else beside me.