wah shit i have a really bad memory. first i forgot to bring my house keys home, then i forgot to bring my contacts case and forgot if my house has an extra one, i forgot about my friends' birthdays, i forgot if i locked my hostel door and soooo many more things.
ok, my mum just talked to me and told me the most shocking piece of news. my cousin died 2 years back. and i just knew about it today. he commited suicide, and they suspected that it's due to some kind of psychological problem, which was, i guess, inborn coz his other twin is having it now but it's under control. i was quite ashamed of myself coz i didnt find him missing after returning to hk for so many times. i thought they were just busy and didnt attend those dinners. call me heartless, but i didnt really cry after knowing that, maybe coz i wasnt close with them. i seldom talk to them.. but i'm quite down coz i just lost a cousin lidat. and why everybody acted as if nth happened! or rather, i wasnt observant enough.
somehow it just struck me, maybe i should stop keeping stuffs to myself. i dunno, but i have this weird side of me. when i have problems, i think whom i can tell this prob to. so actually not everyone knows abt my stuff. so strange. bleahxxxx.