the japanese studies dept sent me this email on some scholarship thingy.
for a moment i related it to some people and somehow looked back at myself.
a bad student i am.
i havent attained much in my academic work ever since sec2. sec school was the only time i worked really hard, for god-knows-what purposes. maybe for the childish thought to prove myself to everyone, my parents, my friends, my teachers. ultimately the results disappointed me but anyway, it's in the past.
the entire 2006 was spent on fun activities, nth related to school work. assignments, readings, i loathed them. seriously the attitude changed, too much. i give up easily now. for example, this afternoon, after looking at my japanese homework, i gave a loud sigh and really wanted to drop the module. the interest component was totally wiped off just by looking at the heavy workload. i hate that attitude, but somehow it's in me already. so so so dead. i cant stand it.
laziness got the better of me already. and i really hate that i'm a slow learner.
last night, i was asked that question. i know i've changed, my perceptions and attitude. i didnt want to think about those matters again, since i have enough of those for the past 2 weeks. i thought i had an answer, but one question set me thinking all over again.
tomorrow is the big day, for the moment that is. PSY or BIO. it all depends on the freakin appeal results.
out of point. i was reading my cousin-in-law's (who moved to US for some research) blog. aw, it feels so good to just be a homemaker. maybe we'll tend to look into little things. so heartwarming... totally no idea what i'm blabbering about.