tomorrow marks the end of the long anticipated 10days!
although short, or long (depends), i've experienced all ups and downs during this period of time.
i've finally said stuffs that i have kept inside me for soooo long, i've cried, flared up, smiled again, and also enjoyed myself..
i have no idea how long this journey will last, but i'll keep the faith.
genting/cameron trip gone due to the TOOPID flooded malaysia. oh sighs.
i wish i could overcome all these barriers, for a better year ahead.
better relationships with so many people, my parents, my friends...
i wish i can really open up.
and stop being such a coward.
and stop being such a slacker too.
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i've just downloaded the etor video and i seriously teared (like a loser emo ass) maybe i didnt really hate TH that much, disliked that place that much. things are always like that, we only learn to treasure when we lose it. i remembered all the times i had, telling the first person in hall how much i can adapt to hall life and how i was encouraged during the last debrief that i can find a reason, or even someone that make me stay. the late night tv sessions with gwen and yaozhi and daniel (till 5am) what key told me during one of the dinners during orientation, and how she and ivan said that i could make it for THOC. and initiation was the part i cried most. damn. seriously the candles and the milo and the warm towel after everything make u wanna cry (out loud). i kind of regretted ponning orientation. those arts and craft sessions of sports comm, bitching about people with shiying, painting banners and talking with jialun over the most random things like sending ur daughters to scgs.
so much for bidding goodbye to that place.. and this part of me that was so unwilling to leave.