today is the unlucky day.
first i've lost my nus ezlink. rahh
secondly, i flunged my history test by giving the most nonsensical rubbish in that given space. lack of revision you know.
thirdly, i dont feel like mentioning it.
thank goodness i didnt ________________.
all i've learnt is that the simplest things are the hardest to get.
i've got nothing much to say.
the moments of disappointment..
sidenote, i love reheating muffins! :)
bazaars! hearts on the ceiling, <3
i hate it 'cause the media just portrays love to be so beautiful, so perfect. lies, lies, lies.
maybe it's me who's being so incapable.
i think 2007 is a bad year for me.
this year, there's no reunion dinner, at least no big dinners for me.
i dont get to have dinners with my relatives, despite the fact that i'm going hk.
i dont get to have dinners with the usual group of mummy's friends before cny.
i feel quite dejected coz life's getting worse.
i'm missing out all these necessary parts of life.
i dont even get to shop for new year goodies, carrying the box of mandrin orange and drinks.
what is this?
i even got pangseh-ed for this dinner that had some meaning to me and which i was rather excited about.
others get to enjoy all these simple things that i'm deprived of.
there's this gush of envy when i see others all smiles, enjoying all these precious moments that i dont even get to experience. i know i'm supposed to be satisfied with my life, but i can't.
i have chosen to give up, just watching how long this can drag.
so much for being optimistic, when i should have listened and believed that such relationships dont last.