since there's always a better alternative.
and thus, i'm the spare.
how many times i've tried to deceive myself, how many times have i tried convincing myself.
maybe it's a character flaw, and probably i wont get to know it.
this emotional blackmail, how long will it last? or rather, will it ever end?
university is making me feel worse each day. i dont get the happiness that everyone's experiencing.
maybe it's all fated.
